I lost my mojo about a week ago now. I wonder if you’ve seen her? Ever had this problem? You know, you’re on a roll everything’s flowing and coming together and then suddenly – BOOM she’s gone. Disappeared into the ether. Mostly its temporary and a good sleep and a day off is enough for a refresh and a recharge. But every so often she seems to go on a holiday. This is where I find myself as I start to compose this blog.
To be honest with you I think I know what’s happened. The full moon came, life threw a curve ball and I didn’t prepare myself for the rest and recharge that was imminent. You see planning, preparing, scheduling and such does my head in. I’m a write a list and lose it kinda gal. One who has the greatest intentions to be organised, on time and ahead of the game but it never lasts. I’m sure I'm rebelling against my corporate days when I was forced to business plan and budget and wasn’t allowed to trust my gut and take a project on joyride to see where we ended up. No, I had to plan, do risk assessments, identify contingencies, set budgets against line items, report to committees and write endless reports. Talk about suck the creativity, innovation and spontaneity out of possibility! So, now when Miss Mojo goes there’s no fall-back plan. There’s no team, no one else to fill my calendar up with important things. Just me without my mojo staring at a blank screen.
So last week for the first time ever I didn’t put out a blog or post regularly on social media. I figured the world’s not going to stop. But I know from all the online courses and groups and advice that I’ve been given that consistency is the key. So, despite this lack of engagement coupled with imposter syndrome, the fear of getting it wrong I’ve been able to push past it and stay consistent. But not last week. And now it’s time to deal with it.
So, here’s my step by step process.
1. I’m getting out my journal and picking up a pen.
2. I’m going to ask Rebellion what’s going on as I sense some resistance; and
3. I’m going to chat to Miss Mojo and see where she’s gone. I need to know what she needs from me to come back and be friends.
So, here’s what I discovered. Rebellion reminded me that I hate being bossed around or told what to do and the more I follow the rules of what everyone else tells me I have to do while I’m trying to be an independent thinker the less connected I am to that free spirit. The truth is I have done endless courses, followed formulas and am being “good” which gives me safety in assuring success. But what Rebellion has reminded me of is that following the formula is not at the heart of how I see myself. So, I need to stop. I need to do the work and peel off the “doing it properly” layer and be brave and do my business in the way that best aligns with me (and therefore Mojo). Rebellion reminded me that she’s on my side.
So over to Miss Mojo who I learnt is just peeved. She reminded me that she has been waiting patiently for fourteen years for us to do this venture. That, when I decided all that time ago that I had to put these plans aside, that she waited and was good and did what was expected of her. But now she tells me we are still playing by the rules, we're being too slow and playing too small and that’s not what she had in mind! She’s protesting and demanding we do something brave. That we step it up and “just get on with it”. Yikes... I hear her and feel the pressure!
It’s so easy to get frustrated and annoyed with ourselves when things don’t flow or get in the way of us being productive. I’ve learnt that these are the signs we need to stop for. They are the ones that tell us we have moved off course. They are the ones that remind us we need to return to ourselves and check in. They are the ones that have something to say worth listening to.
The problem is we’ve been taught to ignore them, to push through the resistance and that doing so is a mark of mental strength and determination. But what if it’s not? What if the strength and resilience actually comes from listening, from leaning in, being quiet and being open to hear what she has to say?
If you get this, and have the same restless uncertainty that I did then check out my FREE guide. My journaling exercise is one of 5 five actions you can take in 5 minutes or less, anywhere, anytime to come back to yourself, receive "her" messages and course correct. When you can do this, you lose those feelings of stress and overwhelm and build the confidence to know that the answers you seek are already available to you. They just need a way to reveal themselves. I promise you'll find at least one action that you can come back to time and time again.
Let me know if this is you and what you struggle with and how you tap in and hear the messages. I'd love to hear from you.
PS. I lost some time (with Miss Mojo being MIA) finalising the details on my Life.Done By Design course. Let me know if you want to know more about being a founding member by sending a quick email to register your interest.
Oh, and a super big thank you and virtual hug to those of you already on the list. Keep your eyes peeled for the first email with a link to more information is definitely coming out this week! I just have a few tweaks to make.